The biggest reason I'm not posting more right now is primarily because my laptop is stiiiiillllll in the shop! What's it been, 4, 5 weeks? The techie is super busy right now, and I've "okayed" him communicating that to me, but come ON!
But now, I have a second thing holding me up. The gun shy thing. After my last 'Help Me' post, I was called out on "complaining so much lately" by a dear friend. And so now, understandably, I'm worried about my writing being taken as nothing but a repeat of a broken record! She and I have since talked, and we're "okay". She was just concerned that what she saw as my negativity could/would/might breed more negativity . . . which she didn't want for me.
It's odd, that perspective thing. I don't consider myself a negative person IN THE SLIGHTEST! Matter of fact, I'm generally the one pointing out potential silver linings. And, so, yeah, I guess I have been writing about my long hours, the time the dogs have to spend in the car, the idiots at work . . . but if I don't get those guilty feelings, those gripes, those, yes, complaints OUT . . . how will I ever move forward?
Now, I don't want you, dear reader, to go lambasting her (my friend) . . . she was only trying to help by pointing these things out. But, it definitely hit me the wrong way, and now I'm trying to decide how to continue writing about that which is my life right now without giving that (continuing to give that?) vibe that some read as negative.
Just as girlfriends always complain about the stupid things their husbands/boyfriends do instead of beaming over the way she came home to a house full of clean laundry tucked away in the appropriate drawers (okay, you're laughing hysterically now, aren't you?!), it's natural for us to - there's that word again - COMPLAIN about that which ails us, figuratively and literally.
Perhaps I do need to verbalize the positives more frequently. I know I certainly am AWARE of them . . . I just don't often speak of them. Why? I dunno. Maybe it's because they don't stick in your craw (or brain!) like the aggravations do. Hmm, something to ponder.
So, with that, I think I'll go have another piece of coffee cake while I get dressed for work.