You know how 'All Work and No Play Makes Jack a Dull Boy'?
Yeah, well, 'All People and No Home Alone Time Makes Chicken Mama a Crabby Girl'.
I haven't been home alone since last Wednesday, and that's about enough to make me crack. Tom called this AM to see if he could come out to pick some things up and maybe take the dogs for a hike. Of course, I said, "Sure."
As soon as I hung up the phone, I began feeling like I was in a glass box with all the air being drawn out slowly but oh, so steadily.
I called him back and asked if he could come out after 4:00 to just pick up the items and leave it at that (right before he goes to dinner at our friends' down on the highway). I explained how I felt, and he totally understood. Then, after I hung up, I cried.
I feel like shite having to turn HIM away, but I neeeeeeed today SO VERY BADLY. And, he gets that. So, I guess I have to get over the guilt and remember that I am very impressed by people who are strong enough TO say no . . . those who remember to take care of themselves. I just wish it wasn't so hard.